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By Me aka Niki Date: 2001 Jun 29 Comment on this Work [[2001.06.29.01.10.31801]] |
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I am in a daily battle to stay sane My mind, body and soul feel the pain, fear and horror over and over again Everyday I wake up and try to win this fight But I'm just so damn tired And I don't know how long I will be able to keep this up I am pushed and shoved into a dark pit A pit I fear because it's so dark in there and I feel so lonely and lost You stole my heart and soul like a thief in the night You were my oxygen I needed to filter my lungs with But when you slipped thru my fingers like quiksand you cut off my airsupply How am I supposed to survive in this cold harsh world After you left, after you killed me? I don't have a heart to keep the blood flowing thru my veins I don't have a soul to keep me feeling I don't have you, my air, to breath The pain is unbearable I build a brick wall longer then the chinese wall and taller then this universe around my broken heart I vowed never to care again I put on a mask every morning before I walk out of the door I write for hours to deal with the pain All of this in the name of surviving and sanity I'm balacing on this silver string And on one side I see the world so happy and perfect On the other I feel chills run down my spine and everything is grey Next to the zillion questions speeding around in my head I ask myself To wich side do I belong to now? |