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By Du'Doll Date: 2001 Oct 25 Comment on this Work [[2001.10.25.22.14.27141]] |
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I am trying to stay focused Keeping the things that matter now Making them important School-grades You-our relationship Family-as honsest as I can be Friends-real and less selfish Religion-searching it for myself I just don't know how I should feel now I have many things rushing through my mind I can't sleep My mind won't let me rest I have to worry about the future It has to be planned out So when the time is acctually here I am ready, prepared I am not scared anymore Fear has no place in my world I have love I have life What more could a girl want Now I have to decipher things What is right, what is wrong What is moral, what is sinful Is my father right, or my heart Is this a punishment, Or a gift from God Does it matter who knows, Or who loves enough to care Am I strong enough, What happens if I am not How does he feel, the father Am I his everything, his only What if I can't satisfy him Will his heart wander, to another Can he love me for a lifetime I don't just want a high school romance Does he think of me as "the one" Or am I just something he found Over the summer I know what I want He knows what I feel What I think about I can't say the same He says all the right things Does he mean them He asked me once "Do you think you are the one for me?" I wanted to scream "yes!!!" But I didn't That is something he has to decide Something he has to know for himself I know I sound emotional I am trying not to be But I know that I am I am a woman I am pregnant I am young I am in love Of course I am all emotions... But what does that mean? |