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By dev0n Date: 2001 Nov 13 Comment on this Work [[2001.11.13.21.48.8511]] |
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i have always been confused about other people's hearts, but never about my own. i know it does not understand laws of physics, gravity, ethics, time. it will do as it pleases, always perfectly sincere. it will dive into this pool, a perfect 10, leaving just a ripple behind to show that the surface broke. so why did i let myself leave you so quickly, in a blizzard of things left unsaid, moments not yet discovered? because it wasn't worth it. the chance for joy was not worth risking. (a part of me died writing that) but love and desire only last a season with blooming colors... reds and blues and greens. the glorious colors always end, with or without my prayers. so why should i pray now? i feel godless without you and you don't believe in love or you wouldn't have said you don't like saying it. and i have believed in love since i knew how to believe. |