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By Prize Date: 2001 Nov 19 Comment on this Work [[2001.11.19.11.43.6177]] |
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Cold chills all over my body Little tingles marching like an army Down my spine Down...down...down Extending to my extremities Consuming my entire body I pull my coat tighter around me But no warmth is to be found The coldness cuts through me Sharp as a knife and scraping the bones... Restless night Get up Work out Bathe Work Eat Restless night Sleep is no escape Dreams have turned against me My dreams are fantasy, not real You taught me You teach me Be sensible Be rational Be practical We have boulders in our path of gravel Attempting to move them would tear us apart So you tear us apart instead Or did I tear us apart By not settling for a mere friendship I should be grateful to have a friend like you But I love you more than a friend And my love is dependent The dependency scares you, scares me So I let you go...I said goodbye...now your gone Being sensible Being rational Being practical But nothing is the same without you How I miss you...immeasurable... I wonder the path of gravel And I climb on the big boulders Searching for you on the path...our path But I am all alone The wind blows hard through the emptiness Transporting me back through time and space I am back in reality Sitting quietly at the big round table Listening to my coworkers, taking the minutes I look up from my screen and into their faces Someone catches my eye...what's wrong? I'm fine...{smile}...through blurry, tear filled eyes I'm fine...I'm fine...I'm fine {I'm not fine} I miss you I want you I need you My darling...I am so very cold. How do I find warmth without you? |