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By erin Date: 2002 Mar 21 Comment on this Work [[2002.03.21.18.21.15759]] |
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I wish you knew that you are the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. The trouble is, I can't seem to verbalize these feelings I have to you. I want to share my fears with you, that I have this doubt that this is all too good to be true, and that it is going to all come crashing down around me one day. I don't want to jinx anything. What if I say something to you and don't respond in like? What if I ask you if you have ever cheated on someone and you say yes. Small things. Small things I want to ask you, things I do already know your response for---then why am I so scared of sharing my whole emotional self with you?! Well, that is a stupid question, because I already know that answer. It's just I wish you were the first boy that I have ever had these feelings for, because then I wouldn't be so disillusioned about the eventual outcome, the inevitable outcome. Then I wouldn't lie in your arms at night, long after you've fallen asleep, wondering when it's going to happen, when are you going to break my heart? |