By Jon Date: 2002 Jun 15 Comment on this Work [[2002.06.15.01.38.2304]] |
im sitting here with a glass of whiskey i need it so i wont remember who i am when im done writing this i write and i write either just to write or to impress myself with my own thoughts thrown into some sort of order that others can relate too whatever all i know is that i need to write to keep my head afloat sometimes i feel like im drowning in my thoughts by writing them down i throw myself a life saver and i float a little longer over the ocean of my own regret some people say i should a write a book i should do a lot of things i should decide my major i should call my dad tell him that i miss him maybe even that i love him i should solve my own problems before i write about them and try to sell a book about them to people or maybe that's the best time to do it dont get me wrong i enjoy writing i love writing but sometimes it feels like im going through certain things just for material after all what would i have to write about if i didnt have any real life experiences to back up my own crazy interpretations of them? if i had the choice or the abilty to write about love at it's most purest it's most honest at its most Hallmark-like moments i wouldnt even if i could write about true love i wouldnt or maybe im just bitter or maybe i just like to write about pain or maybe im just crazy or maybe im on the verge of finding my place yeah, that sounds good. i dont like to write in a certain style. i usually go for raw i hardly use the spell cheker and grammar can kiss my ass usually i end my stuff with some sort of one liner that connects the whole thing and makes my ramble of dirty thoughts make some sort of sense and i guess this is the part where i come up with that one liner fuck it oh, there it goes. |