By Misti
Date: 2002 Jun 15
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What it Comes Down To

so this is what it comes
       down to
        this
after all the bloody effort
the sacrifice
the Maybelline and Cover Girl
well-applied
the ardent kisses
not too wet
or mindless
my small pink tongue
creating a poem
inside your mouth

this is the fruit of my labor
        this?!@#$%
me standing here in clammy disbelief
watching you pant after her
the smelly white trash skank of the world
she accepts the gift of you
with the smug knowing
of a world-wise slut

everything I gave you
a waste
I can chainsmoke Monarchs
drink vodka for breakfast
write a million sick poems
seduce every guy who isn't
         you
and still you'll be there
Up There
in White Man's Heaven
and I'll be here
down here
on the other side
of the Styx

discarded coupons from the Sunday paper
receipt for a small purchase
a cartoon Medea
...this is what it comes down to.