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By angieubaldo Date: 2002 Sep 24 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.24.05.02.500]] |
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i wonder... I wonder, How many hearts Have been tangled up in my web. I wonder, What my baby would have looked like, Would she grow up to be just like me.. would she have, been a he? Would i have still lost "it" if i hadn't prayed to God, to make the pain stop, to give me another chance... I wonder, Where I would be, If I didn't throw my life away After I graduated? I wonder Where my love is right now... If there anyone thinking of me Dreaming of me, Like I dream of him? I wonder, Does he love me? has anyone ever loved me, more then i love myself? I wonder, What I would sound like With a Spanish accent I wonder... what the point to all this bullshit i endure, on a daily basis... i wonder, why people have to be such assholes when their email won't work. i wonder, why it has to hurt so fucking much to be me. i wonder, if everyone has felt like me, looked into the mirror, and despised what they see. i wonder, if anyone will ever want more from me, then a one night stand i wonder, what my mom would say of she knew what i did today... i wonder, when the last time i told my brother i loved him. i wonder, why God loves me, when i hate myself. i wonder, when i will get locked up for being crazy. i wonder, when I will stop running? when can i stop exercising? when will i meet my knight in shining armor, my prince? when will this juliet, meet her romeo? When can I rest? How do i pass this test? When can i stop looking back, and move forward. i wonder when will i wake up? i wonder, when will someone toss me a quarter and tell me to go buy myself a clue? when will i learn to bite my toungue... When can i stop apologizing, to everyone i love. When can i stop asking God for forgiveness? When can i forgive myself? i wonder. |