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By Nonitta Date: 2002 Nov 14 Comment on this Work [[2002.11.14.15.33.17916]] |
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When I was little, no one could compare to you. I thought you were the greatest dad. My love for you was true. You tucked me into bed at night, and ready me my favorite book. You could make me happy with a simple kindly look. You taught me how to read, and how to tie my shoe. You showed me how to smile. I thought I was loved by you. I ran to you with scrapes, and your kiss would help it heal. I ran to you with problems, and relief is what I'd feel. You encouraged me to imagine, and go my own unique way. You encouraged me to learn, and showed me how to pray. From you I learned my morals, and took them to my heart. You wanted me to have values right from the start. My admiration had no end. I compared my guys to you. He was only good enough for me if he was good enough to you. I worked hard in school, so you could be proud of me. I wanted to impress you, and show you how smart I could be. All those years of believing you were a perfect guy were shattered in an instant when I found out your lie. You were cheating on my mom with some younger girl Just the shame involved makes me want to hurl. You lied about our money and where it had got spent. You drove us into debt. Who knows where it went? You even forged my name, and took a large amount. You opened up a credit card, and charged to MY account. Your actions aren't the worst part. Intead its how we've been treated. You must never have loved us. My hope has been defeated. You don't seem to care, or even to feel bad. I have no choice but to hate you, and this makes me sad. If I can't trust my father, and depend on him for love. Who am I to count on when push comes to shove? |