Tired

I'm tired of hearing how you care about me
And how there are still feelings there.
I'm tired of seeing her face whenever I see yours
Sick of showing you how much I care.

I'm tired of shedding tears for you
And wasting my precious time
I'm tired of trying to get you to talk about this
When it's clearly not worth your time.

I'm tired of you lying to me
And you asking if we're still friends
I'm tired of hearing "I'm sorry I hurt you"
Why care now?  It didn't bother you then.

I realize how gullible & naïve I was
To believe anything you ever said.
I figured out what a fool I had been 
To spend so many nights in your bed.

I realize how fake you are
When you put on that "nice guy" act
Or when you were quick to toss me aside
As soon as she came back

I should've never given you the satisfaction
Of seeing me shed one tear over you.
And the minute she started coming by again
I should've told you we were through.

But it's too late now for "should've, could've or what if"
And way too late to redeem my pride
It's too bad I can't take it all back
It's a shame I let you get inside

It's a shame that I blamed myself
For something over which I had no control
It's even worse that you went back to her
And left something good for something old

I guess I just had you out on loan
And my term had finally run out
I thought for a while about refinancing
But I finally threw that idea out.

6*26*03
(c)Stacey