By Misti Date: 2004 Nov 22 Comment on this Work [[2004.11.22.12.52.22873]] |
he would say I left a good marriage (he didn't beat me) (he didn't drink) (he didn't cheat) (he didn't mind fucking me when I was not in the mood) (he didn't mind weekly divorce chats) (he didn't make me happy) (he didn't let me cook for him) (he didn't let me help with the bills or budget) because I was a faithless whore but we both know better and that is all that matters I broke his heart so badly he wasted no time in replacing me one soul mate after another asked me if I needed help because he is a benevolent kind of guy but he did not help me he could not be bothered my pussy was no longer in the equation I gave it to someone else so fuck me I had no worth and he is lying because he does that in his hypocritical pseudo good guy way I am faithful to you because I love and respect and adore you the thought of being with anyone but you repulses me you don't make my skin crawl you don't infuriate me you don't play games that make you superior or make you daddy to my electra you were with Dior for four years when she stopped wanting sex the last year and a half because she was so depressed you didn't make her feel guilty for not wanting to fuck you you have told me from the beginning sex is only good when the woman wants it and Dior left with all the furniture she fucked you over yet you continued to help her out you have every reason to be bitter and hate her but you aren't and you don't my gawd the shit we have survived the hell we have lived through thank you for being patient all the times I cried because I felt guilty all the times I asked you if I could be friends with my ex when for whatever reasons I made myself believe there was a chance in hell of that when the truth is I am honest and hard and he deals in soft lies disguised as a victim I'm so glad he appreciates my poetry but true friends never doubt your character and don't look down at you smugly while you flail wailing in the bed you made. |