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By courtney Date: 2004 Dec 10 Comment on this Work [[2004.12.10.21.25.12329]] |
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I knew from the hesitation in his kiss that bliss had better take a back seat defeat was victorious once again- knocked me out in the 1st round I have found there is no faking or mistaking the knowledge that hopscotches on your spine- a lover's decline is a 1, 2 sucker punch to the gut I am stuck in the same old rut that pulls me down like quick sand and demands more then whats stored in my vault of methods of ways to "get over it" when the collision wreaks me for days I am amazed I haven't crumbled under the pressure from the measures I took to overlook the times it was all signed out lent out read out loud the sounds they made when I let them invade the darkest parts the private parts the vulnerable parts... my heart's been damaged but still I've managed to band-aid the skin forget the places I've been when did i begin to lower the needs to ignore my soul's need I feed on all that's shiny and new but in the end never collect on what I am due. |