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By Star of David Date: 2005 Aug 12 Comment on this Work [[2005.08.12.08.21.6439]] |
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Autumn Leaves ---------------- Autumn said the horses on our carousel are rusted Your tears have stained my cheeks a shade of grey I can't remember how or why I ever said I love you I wish that you would tell me something interesting to say The reds and greens and yellows of my life are slowly drifting In a rain of ash and cinder on this late November wind I used to be so colorful but now my palette's empty And I can't do this, And I won't do this Again And Autumn leaves To let me face the Winter alone And Autumn leaves To chase her broken dreams back to her home Autumn leaves Autumn said I know I feel the days as they grow shorter And the nights are so long I can hardly sleep Every time you touch my face you steal me from a state of grace And build a sky of storm clouds in my dreams The song inside my heart no longer keeps up with the rhythm Of the world that plays the blues outside my door I hear a record spinning in a room that you can't open And I can't do this Don't make me do this Anymore And Autumn leaves Now I can see December blowing in And Autumn leaves I guess I'll brave the bitter winds again Autumn leaves Done Wrong By Ani Difranco ------------------ And before it gets so cold that the rain turns to snow there's just a couple things I'd like to know like how could you do nothing and say, I'm doing my best how could you take almost everything and then come back for the rest how could you beg me to stay reach out your hands and plead and then pack up your eyes and run away as soon as I agreed it just all slips away so slowly you don't even notice till you've lost a lot i've been like one of those zombies in vegas pouring quarters into a slot and now i'm tired and i am broke and i feel stupid and i feel used and i'm at the end of my little rope and i am swinging back and forth about you Tangled Silver -------------- I took a shadow's place in silence, smiled As the days went by, trying to understand My devils, and the hollow in your eyes; But it's all so inconsequential because It's not about us, what we are and who we aren't, Residing in a spider web of today and tomorrow-- It's about accidents, mistakes, slip-ups In passion's presence, words Followed by embraces, things we hadn't Imagined, let alone knew how to deal with. But it dwindled down, secrets smiling As if to say, "Yes, this existed--once-upon-a-time," and yet I question now what was, and what was--perhaps was A mere shimmer of what I wanted to happen; Can a person's heart imitate love, And still swear That it feels true? I don't know anything about Second-chances, but I can tell you about Secondhand smiles, exchanges built upon "Pure" emotion, which turns out to be sand, caught Under a relentless tide--I don't know if anything Is ever really what it seems. But I'm trying to find you, Through all these tangled silver threads, feeling my way Through to what I think is the other side, offering up A few well-placed words, a sly sidelong Glance (a question without it spoken), but I'm asking You too many things, again, and each heartbeat Is refused an answer, each supposition broken carelessly, And shadow-tossed onto the floor. I feel almost undone, Confused into remembering but then forgetting myself-- It seems as if you are denying Everything. It's as if you are denying me. But I'm intertwined in this, just as you are, struggling Against this binding, which is yours and which is mine-- But who is awake and who is sleeping, dreaming this Or not dreaming at all? Divided ----------- Too hard to say There were no regrets In abandonment Of this presence All I see is you Too easy to say Things will be better Without dreams to dream And sleepless nights Will come too easily To not walk the fence line But to leave it instead Play in the meadows To forget the wall That divides us still -------------- For just a moment We laughed until we had to cry and we loved right down to our last goodbye we were the best I think we'll ever be just you and me for just a moment We chased that dream we never found and sometimes we let one another down but the love we made, made everything alright we shone so bright for just a moment time goes on people touch and then they're gone and you and I will never love again like we did then someday when we both reminisce we'll both say there wasn't too much we missed and through the tears we'll smile when we recall we had it all for just a moment time goes on people touch and then they're gone but you and I will never really end will never love again like we did then We laughed until we had to cry and we loved right down to our last goodbye Ghost ------- There's a letter on the desktop that I dug out of a drawer the last truce we ever came to from our adolescent war and I start to feel a fever from the warm air through the screen you come regular like seasons shadowing my dreams the Mississippi's mighty but it starts in Minnesota at a place where you could walk across with five steps down and i guess that's how you started like a pinprick to my heart but at this point you rush right through me and I start to drown and there's not enough room in this world for my pain signals cross and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain of all my demon spirits i need you the most I'm in love with your ghost I'm in love with your ghost but I'd walk into the fingers of your fire willingly and dance the edge of sanity I've never been this close in love with your ghost unknowing captor you'll never know how much you pierced my spirit but i can't touch you can you hear it a cry to be free or i'm forever under lock and key as you pass through me now i see your face before me i would launch a thousand ships to bring your heart back to my island as the sand beneath me slips as i burn up in your presence and i know now how it feels to be weakened like Achilles with you always at my heels and my bitter pill to swallow is the silence that I keep it poisons me i can't swim free the river is too deep though i'm baptized by your touch i am no worse at most in love with your ghost In love with your ghost In love with your ghost In love with your ghost In love with your ghost I Think I'd Like To Stay - Mirabea ---------------------------------- You asked me to look in your eyes while they were still clear, and you spoke those words gentle like more afraid of what they meant to me than what it might cost you. You said that when the time came you would just go off and carry my kiss while you could remember its sweetness, and who I was, and who you were - and goodbye would mean for always. And I knew you were afraid and hated yourself for it, called yourself weak and that this was your way to be a man. But I'd like to stay. And no, that isn't logical or rational and I can't help or maybe do a damned bit of good - but the idea that your heart will beat alone, that you will wait for a silent monster while I am safe and snug and happy (or so you will reason) is just not a truth. I must give up a thousand day dreams being yours and the sound of your words falling into silence - maybe that's a sound I must hear to be able to face the day when you just aren't. So I'd like to stay and I know what that will mean and I tell you that is not just my way of being a woman, but my way of being your woman. I can say I love you ten thousand times and maybe the reason I say it so much is that somewhere inside me I knew I would only have so long to say all that needed said. But I'd like to stay. Because the thought of giving up a day or an hour or a minute of you before I must tears my soul to pieces and I always said I was selfish. So I'd like to stay. Even if the price is the last goodbye I will ever say to you. |