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By iammyself Date: 2005 Oct 02 Comment on this Work [[2005.10.02.21.57.19928]] |
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tonight i prayed, babe. yeah, this from the guy who doesn't need religion, who sees god in everything, who said he'd never hurt you. i wept and prayed and wept some more. i watched what dreams may come, just to torment myself and see if there was anything i could hang on to, anything that could give me a ray of hope that i'd see you in another life. i'd like more than anything to be your life partner in the next life. i told you that, but i don't think you want to believe anything i have to say to you anymore. i understand, and i'm sorry. i prayed for help, for direction, for solace, for strength. you were right, we are soul-mates. i never believed in such a thing...until i met you. even then, i questioned it. you saw it long before i did, yet i wouldn't see it until now, and now...it's too late. i can't change my direction again; i've hurt too many people and have lost myself in the process. i didn't pray for me, hon...i prayed for you. i want so badly for you to find your own happiness, within yourself. it may not be something that i can now find in this lifetime, but i want it so much for you. you were right to heap scorn on me, honey. but please, let it go and know that i love you in a deeper way than i've ever loved before. vaya con dios, Mandi. ted |