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By no white flag Date: 2006 Oct 22 Comment on this Work [[2006.10.22.21.32.9139]] |
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apathy crept over me slowly blurring my soul slowing my spirit corrupting my mind with nonthoughts like looking at the world through your grandmas super strong glasses the coulors are faded smells diluted, sounds,even my favorite song not music,too my ears all food tastes like oatmeal with no sugar and no cream whatever happened too me,, the girl,with a dream why cant i,,dont i,, care was so much of my life just an illusion then why did i care waste my love,,my caring on people,,who werent there its not the loss of the people thats probably a blessing and no disguise its my loss of trust and believing even tho im still naieve how do i know this? i still find it hard too believe i could be fooled so easily kind and sweet and gentle and it was all an act so,, i have lost my belief mainly,,in myself i feel so apathetic i feel so all alone my mind says its best this way been thru so much already done it on my own i have inner strength and in doing,,i have grown so,,is it goodbye too love? alone too make my way no lover and best friend too share all lifes joys and fears? or,,will this haze lift heal my mind and soul do i need another person too complete my life and heart? or,is there a trust store somewhere that sells,toughen up pills? can i lose the naievety? so i will know when,,"i love you" is said its meant from the heart and not from the head please,,no more players make it real so i can see the worlds beatiful colours not wonder every day when his true colours if bad will dim my world too darkness so,, i reserve a part of me, dont give all my heart a litle at a time, time too heal and grow together maybe he will have wounds that didnt quite heal too ill mend his heart if he mends mine. the apathy is lifting my spirit wont give in hope,,lives within me i see a patch of blue no white flag an optimest again. ______________________ baby,,whoever you are. please,, dont let me down ------------------------------------ Once in awhile, Right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale. ----------------------------------------------- It is said that you don't know what you have until it's gone. But, it is also true that you don't know what you have been missing until it arrives! ------------------------------------------------------------- He holds me when I start to cry, makes me smile with just his eyes, shares my hopes, dreams, fears, whipes away all my tears, I love him without regret, I just havent found him yet. |