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By corinna Date: 2007 Sep 07 Comment on this Work [[2007.09.07.04.10.14416]] |
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He tells me he loves me when he's messed up. He says he doesn't want to let me go. He swears I mean the world to him But when he's sober I just don't know. He looks at me with sad eyes when his mind isn’t right. He makes me feel so sad inside When he’s not sober, he makes me think I'm everything to him But otherwise I can't help but feel its all a lie. Because there's days when I'm his enemy There's nothing but mean words and angry thoughts When he's sober after all his partying I find it hard to believe I'm the one he wants. But when he stops for a while or more He's a whole other being or so it seems We get along so perfectly and we’re so loving He makes me feel we're meant to be We may sit around doing nothing at all but still we laugh joke and play I look at him with adoring eyes And we can't keep our hands away. I wish everyday were like that I'd love it if we got along all the time I know that some relationships are perfect But why can't one be mine. I love him so much it hurts But yet I hate him all the same You'd think I'd know after a year and half But we're still playing stupid games I wish we could both grow up But the only time we talk is when we're not sober There's no yelling, shouting or screaming But there IS talk of it being over. I just wish he would choose me first Put me before all the minor little things A relationship should be give and take Its not about who loses or wins I'm pretty sure I want a future with him But we both need to get our lives on track I'm just so afraid that its too late I'm scared there's not turning back Regardless of where the road leads I know he's left a stain upon my heart He'll always be part of my soul He'll always be in my heart. If you ever read this Joe, Know that all my bitching wasn't for fun I just wanted you to see things my way I don’t like seeing what you’ve become. I love you with all my heart and that’s a fact I've never meant you any pain or harm I just hope you’ll eventually find the right path Cuz I'll be waiting at the end with open arms. |