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By Harrington Date: 2008 Jul 09 Comment on this Work [[2008.07.09.15.31.31574]] |
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Four years, two days, five hours, 13 minuets Our marriage lasted Three years, one day, two hours, some odd minuets The first time you laid your hands on me I remember that moment Your hands around my throat I fell to the floor, you followed me down You yelling in my face I don't think you remember anything at all What did I do I promised to love you and cherish you Is this the rest of my life...yes (at least the next some odd years) Every black/blue/green eye Every swollen/bleeding lip Every finger mark on my neck and arms Every bruise I hid under my shirt Every time you cheated (You blamed it on my lack of intimacy) Every time you lied I left you But you had to beat me down just one more time I let you into the house to pick up our daughter I trusted you one time too many You took what didn't belong to you anymore You took my rights and freedom to say "no" I sat in that hospital bed for two weeks (all because I opened the door for you) Nine months later, two days, and 4 hours Back into the hospital to have your second child Tell me how I am supposed to be ok How can I ever love another man when I expect him to be just like you I know he will be just like you How am I supposed to be ok when you come and take our girls for visitation I still remember I still flinch when your move your arms, legs, hands I AM NOT OK My life, and I am not even living it My scars, not even from you (those are from my own knives/razor blades) My tears, I cry at night The way I snap at any man that looks at me or tells me that I am beautiful (what the hell are they looking at!) Up Down Over Around Drowning, screaming...I am dying The waves and ripples of what we were I am still reeling from what we used to be |