By Chayil
Date: 2013 Nov 04
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I loved you enough

I loved you enough
to be your punching bag
to sit in the trenches with you
to hold your hand
as the walls came
tumbling down
To weather the storm by your side

i loved you enough
to cry for you
to bleed myself dry for you
to trade it all for you
just for the hopes that you would do the same
for me


I loved you enough
to take your blows
to humiliate myself
to make myself vulnerable
to stay while you pushed me away
to let you insult me
to let you break me
to let you tear me down
as i placed you on a pedestal

i loved you enough
to try to understand you
to try to unlock you
to forgive you

to give you my heart in the hopes that
i could have yours
All I ever wanted was you
my love.

I understand you
more than i understand myself
and selfishly I loved you
more than myself


I would give you all of me
i loved you enough

but the truth is
even though i loved you with
every fiber of my being
bled myself dry

love was not enough
and you would never do the same
for me.


In the schemes of things
i am just one more notch on your bed post
one more heart that you ripped out and consumed
on your journey to self discovery

I hope that one day I can love myself
enough to let you go.

because the truth is
its so much easier to love you
than to love myself.