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By Elaina Submitted by blue sky to your clouds Date: 2001 May 08 Comment on this Work [[2001.05.08.00.29.16723]] |
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Here I stand, one step out of innocence and two steps into hell. I can no longer feel. And I like it that way, the numbness, cold yet refreshing. however, sometimes you say things, and it warms me. I feel for a moment what I've lost, and it scares me, it scares me so much. I don't know what to do. I don't know why you do what you do. The subconscience games you play like you were born to wound me and only me. Almost as if the only reason we met was because you are to punish me for past sins. And I feel this circle of tears and laughter will never end. So I let it build, in the pit of my stomach and I can do nothing, because I know nothing. The only direction I know is the same path I've already traveled. And that led me no where I want to be. Please, don't break what's already broken, but don't try to mend what you tore. Just let things start like you just met me, and pretend that I'm not who you know. Please, no matter how unbreakable I may seem, I know you can see through all of that and know I'm so close to unfixable that one more blow to the head (or heart) will kill me. I don't want to die. I don't want to go out like that. With no love to die for, with no hate in my heart, nothing...numb. |