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By Elaina Submitted by blue sky to your clouds Date: 2001 Dec 03 Comment on this Work [[2001.12.03.00.22.11927]] |
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My eyes have been dry for weeks. The thought of you, only drifted by every once in a while. Then today I found a poem that you wrote for me and my cries were un-stoppable. I don't understand why if you never really cared, if you lied and played so many games, why can't I just walk away? I was almost stunned that you showed where you knew I would be, and yet I never really saw you. I couldn't look at you, barely mumble a hello. And I don't know why. I thought I would be ok seeing you, and even seeing you with her. I've been happy lately, exactly where I want to be, and happy for you. But if I would have known how hard I had to hold back my tears after leaving the room, I wouldn't have even said hello. I want so badly to be your friend, to talk and have fun with you, but in all honesty I don't think I can ever see you again. My heart just can't take anymore, and I suppose that's why it's so easy for me to just go see who-ever. I've finally come to understand I'm completely incapable of love. Even more now than before. Because I've given my all, been SO very patient, believed and relaxed. And once again all it got me was a broken heart. So if you ever wonder where I am, what I'm doing, why I seem to be missing in action, I'm telling you now it's you that I'm hiding from. |