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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Sep 26 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.26.11.02.20379]] |
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What would I do differently in my life if I could? It's such a hard question to answer it's so easy to say that I'm happy the way things have gone, but that isn't true If I could go back........ I would cherish a lot more things, that I took for granted I would have been more confident in myself, I would have reached out to people I would have loved my mom a lot more, and asked less of her I would have spent more time with my grandpa Harrison, and read to him like I should have I would have just enjoyed my time in Kentucky, without complaining I would have spent more time with mami I wouldn't have complained that my summer was being wasted by going to Kentucky I would have just enjoyed the moment I wouldn't have tried to lose weight, I would have realized that it would all even out I wouldn't have let Mark bother me, instead I would give him the option to love me, and then just walk away I would have tried to make more lasting, high school friendships I wouldn't have taken Merrill for granted, and I would have appreciated his efforts If i could go back, I would introduced Trevor to my family What would have been the worst that could happen? he told me that he signed up for it, but I just wanted to protect him God, if I had only known.... they say you can't go back Why is that so hard to deal with? If I could go back, I would wake up early without complaint, but just a smile I would cherish every moment that we spent together, and take pictures, lots of pictures if I coudl go back, I would make closer friends with my sorority sisters I wouldn't be bogged down by weight and numbers I know that life will work out like it was meant to but don't believe for a second, that i wouldn't go back if i could It's hard to admit that I've made mistakes but I am moving on, and getting on with my life I did a lot of these things out of fear and every day that I live, life gets more exciting and less scary |