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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Oct 10 Comment on this Work [[2002.10.10.15.08.442]] |
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I'm so lonely like some old cliche I seek to push the sadness and loneliness away but it lingers like the scent of bad cologne It bothers me to realize that there is so much that I always seem to overlook They say that loneliness flocks to birds of the same People flock to me to share their bad experiences but my heart is so light that it can't handle the strain I feel sick at my stomach when I get in situations like these and then I must fill this void with food which leads to me having to exorcise the demons within me those who remind me that too much food will lead to my ultimate demise Why do I put up with this? why in the Hell are there only songs about love? What does love mean anyway I'm never going to be in love again, it hurts so much, i feel like my heart is being shattered by a sledgehammer the only escape that provides the most relief is working out when i work out i allow my mind to count counting keeps my mind full, without spilling over into my actual consciousness just like drinking water keeps your stomach full, without the calories Why is my head full of this useless information when did my whole life's composition consist of food, calories, and burning calories when did my body become so run down that all i want to do is lie in bed, and not wake up i pray each day that i will wake up in another dream, another scenario to a better day Forgive me, but I don't want you Forgive me, but you don't make me happy No one makes me happy anymore, i feel like i've reached the abominable abyss the abyss where no one escapes, because their weakness is so much stronger, and their strength takes a vacation It hurts me to realize that so many people care about me, but I've committed the largest sin known to man I lied about my emotions to two of the most important people in my life now I am being punished by losing both of them simultaneously god, this is so painful Why must you take him away from me now? Why did you take ths other person away from me? I gnash my teeth and bang my head until they bleed, but no relief is achieved instead I feel like a hamster in the cage of life without any escape Would being perfect make me happy? DO others see beyond my facade to realize that I am the most unconfident, unhappy woman to roam this Earth jill sobule had it just right..our heroes are so imperfect, yet their false mask of happiness is all that we see despite their skillful depictions of what unhappiness feels like My frustrations and desire are so insignificant right now I don't belong here, I can't wait for this year to be over I'm so lonely, but I can't place my finger on the reasons why Ever notice, loneliness is greatest when you're surrounded by people? |