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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Dec 25 Comment on this Work [[2002.12.25.19.21.3116]] |
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Merry Christmas the phrase that will no longer carry the same meaning for me this christmas has been the worst christmas ever but the first christmas to carry with it a lesson Being unable to go home to my family I was struck by a sudden homesickness that consumed me but refused to let me go and i knew how someone very special to me must have felt all those times they were forced to be alone I miss grandpa and his usual christmas greeting grandma doing all the work, but not bitter about it my mother and stepfather arguing like every other christmas eve and the smell of christmas throughout the house the wrapping paper, the cookies, most of all, the mashed potatoes this year, i wanted to share someone special with my family but those plans were foiled due to bad weather then, when i try to make a milkshake out of sour milk, i'm once again kicked in the face i have no money so i sit in my apartment watching television with the one person who i could see myself loving forever but, like he had promised me, he refused to leave me the blessing of this hell is two fold i am learning what it must feel like to have no money but I am appreciating the thrill of being near the one i love and learning to let him love me, as he says,"merry christmas" |