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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Dec 29 Comment on this Work [[2002.12.29.01.42.9103]] |
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Enablers allow their lovers to tear them apart but somehow never comprehend that all this pain is somehow their responsibility to bear the cost of loving someone too much I've enabled you to treat me this way to cast all your burdens upon me and to never consider how much this affects me how my mind labors endelessly on your strife I didn't lie when i said i would give it all up i would allow you to take all my material possesions if it would make you happy, even for a split second but there i go again..enabling you it's hard on me to tell you no when i think that i may hurt you so much so that you won't want to be near me, to love me don't run from me, run to me How is it that I constantly become the one that nurtures another but i'm left behind in their struggle for life I've given you all my breath, my heart, my soul and you've taken it all, and left me with barely enough to survive You want to put me down to hurt me to punish me for imaginary offenses the only offense that i've committed is loving you i've believed in your heart, in the way i feel about you to an almost fault but it doesn't make me a bad person, or a person unworthy of your love you seem so harsh with me sometimes but somehow through all my pain i've developed the capacity to overlook my pain and to instead focus on your happiness i know that i can never make you completely happy no one can no one can complete your life until you decide to take the steps to allow someone to love you I"m the enabler that allows you to experience everything on your own terms i'm there when you need a mental, physical, or even social fix i run to you, with a first aid kit, cookies, and a smile you take what i offer, then offer me nothing i do these things because i want to because i care about your more than anything in the world material possesions are nothing compared to your love you completed me in such a short time, now there is a void that is irreplaceable i've always believed that when god closes a door that he opens one but in this case, he's not only shut a door, but also taken the keys to all the other doors you are my dream come true and this is an inescapable nightmare I'll stop enabling you if you start appreciating me you must change, too it isn't all me I"ve done all that i can for you yet, you're still not satisfied like my mother, and countless others before her you continually depend on me for your will But, I can't do it anymore I'm not responsible for your survival it's not that i don't love you it's that i love you so much, that i want to stop enabling you to keep your love away from me |