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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Feb 17 Comment on this Work [[2003.02.17.10.49.25277]] |
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Somehow you stepped into my life when I needed you you brought me a brief moment of happiness you took all my strength and left me weakly hanging on you asked for my friendship promised a reunion left me hopefully battling your surge in mood and emotion knowing that the end result would be worthwhile do you ever feel as if you are using me to build up your own arsenal of strength are you sincere when you recount your failure at fetching me the moon or a vw bug does her desperation make you as ill as it makes me did it rip your heart out to see my admiring eyes focused on another did unstoppable, hot tears trickle down your defeated cheek were you at once aware all that you stand to lose my love is a wonderful gift, that you're on the verge of losing and never regaining all the times you've made me cry are replaced in my mind by the way we made love all the times you've screamed at me are replaced by your heartbeat echoing in my ear as you shield me from pain and danger you will never know how you've shattered my spirit but still i've held on, believing that your pain was too great to hold you responsible for your selfish actions i've refused to give up on anyone how could i give up on the man that i love more than the world there is another who could love me more provide me with all that you lack and love me without disrespecting me or putting me down i'm in a quicksand of indecision i must make up my mind or slowly drive myself insane have all my breath sucked out of me mercilessly unless i can come to some resolution the reality of the situation is more ugly than the illusion i'd have played in my mind in my dreams, i tell you that it's too late that the sight of you makes me ill that you've fucked up one too many times and that i must think of myself, and drop that thing which i don't need: YOU it's too late to proclaim that you'll never hurt me you've done it so many times, so skillfully it's too late to tell me that you'll never lie to me you've lied to my heart so many times, that i'm suprised it's not stopped beating what made you change your mind about me in the span of a day, you did a 180, and decided to let me go in your heart, but watch me dangle like a fly in a spider's web your web is so much more toxic the damage you've done can never be undone it's too late to try and woo me i've seen your ugly side but somehow i love you so much that i can't turn my back on you and tell you it's too late the most maddening part: the way you proclaim your digust for me, but won't let me go you think I'm your possesion you snoop through my things, you put me down, you build me up, and most of all you use my heart to make yourself feel better yet you give me nothing in return the day you begged for me i should have turned away as you've done so many times and told you it's too late, but somehow i believe for you...it's better late than never |