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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Feb 28 Comment on this Work [[2003.02.28.10.44.13712]] |
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your words, your anger, your interpretations all both confuse and anger me why is it that you throw me off balance so much your attacks leave me blindsighted, unprepared, and angry but questions always linger what was the point of that display why must you ask so much of me and seemingly give me so little in return if i'm such a bad person why do you stick around me what can i offer you is it a sin that i wonder why you want to be around me so much don't call me a heartless bitch you have no idea i have more heart that you'll ever know and to think that i focus on death, morbid reality, and depression what if i don't want to be happy maybe i don't know how you haven't helped me but yet you say you do you tell me that you were once in love with me but the thought of losing me scared you so much that you ended your bliss with me that now you want nothing more than my friendship if i hurt you so badly how come you make such an effort to be my friend if you don't love me, how come you look at me that way how come you tell me how attractive i am but then put me down in the next instance this is pure madness i'm driving myself insane your driving me insane what do you want from me you tell me to start a list that doesn't result in us getting back together well i'm thinking right now that if you don't want a reunion than i don't want a friendship because this friendship is pure madness i feel as if i can keep bashing my head in and get no results i'm bleeding before a stonewall and its not retreating this madness is driving me insane i want to change but you must change too because deep down i know we're madly in love |